All I Really Want 

Do I stress you out

My sweater is on backwards and inside out

And you say how appropriate

I don’t want to dissect everything today

I don’t mean to pick you apart you see

But I can’t help it

There I go jumping before the gunshot has gone off

Slap me with a splintered ruler

And it would knock me to the floor if I wasn’t there already

If only I could hunt the hunter

And all I really want is some patience

A way to calm the angry voice

And all I really want is deliverance

Do I wear you out

You must wonder why I’m relentless and all strung out

I’m consumed by the chill of solitary

I’m like Estella

I like to reel it in and spit it out

I’m frustrated by your apathy

And I am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land

If only I could meet the maker

And I’m fascinated by the spiritual man

I am humbled by his humble nature

What I wouldn’t give to find a soul mate

Someone else to catch this drift

And what I wouldn’t give to meet a kindred

Enough about me, let’s talk about you for a minute

Enough about you, let’s talk about life for a while

The conflicts, the craziness and the sound of pretenses

Falling all around... all around

Why are you so petrified of silence

Here can you handle this?

Did you think about your bills, your ex, your deadlines

Or when you think you’re gonna die

Or did you or long for the next distraction

And all I need now is intellectual intercourse

A soul to dig the hole much deeper

And I have no concept of time other an it is flying

If only I could kill the killer

All I really want is some peace man

A place to find a common ground

And all I really want is a wavelength

All I really want is some comfort

A way to get my hands untied

And all I really want is some justice  

Baba

I’ve seen them kneel with faded breath for the ritual

I’ve watched this experience with pseudo higher levels

I’ve watched them leave their family in pursuit of their nirvana

I’ve seen them coming to line up from Switzerland and America

How long will this take, baba?

How long have we been sleeping?

Do you see me hanging on to every word you say?

How soon will I be holy?

How much will this cost, guru?

How much longer ’till you’ve completely absolved me?

I’ve seen them give their drugs in places of natured alters

I’ve heard them chanting kali, kali, frantically

I’ve heard them rudely repeat you teachers with idiotism

I’ve seen them boasting the roads, and foreign dangle woods, beat

How long will this take, baba?

How long have we been sleeping?

Do you see me hanging on to every word you say?

How soon will I be holy?

How much will this cost, guru?

How much longer ’till you’ve completely absolved me?

I’ve seen them overlooking God in their own essence

I’ve seen their upward glances in hopes of instant salvation

I’ve seen their ritcheouness mixed with their own loving confessions

I’ve watched you smile at the people who bowed to kiss your feet

How long will this take, baba?

How long have we been sleeping?

Do you see me hanging on to every word you say?

How soon will I be holy?

How much will this cost, guru?

How much longer ’till you’ve completely absolved me?

Give me strength all knowing one

How long ’till enlightenment?

How much longer ’till you’ve completely absolved me?

Forgiven

You know how us catholic girls can be

We make up for so much time a little too late

I never forgot it, confusing as it was

No fun with no guilt feelings

The sinners, the saviors, the loveless priests

I’ll see you next Sunday

We all had our reasons to be there

We all had a thing or two to learn

We all needed something to cling to

So we did

I sang alleluia in the choir

I confessed my darkest deeds to an envious man

My brothers they never went blind for what they did

But I may as well have

In the name of the father, the skeptic and the son

I had one more stupid question

What I learned I rejected but I believe again

I will suffer the consequence of this inquisition

If I jump in this fountain, will I be forgiven

We all had delusions in our head

We all had our minds made up for us

We had to believe in something

So we did

Hand in My Pocket

I’m broke but I’m happy

I’m poor but I’m kind

I’m short but I’m healthy, yeah

I’m high but I’m grounded

I’m sane but I’m overwhelmed

I’m lost but I’m hopeful baby

What it all comes down to

Is that everything’s gonna be fine fine fine

I’ve got one hand in my pocket

And the other one is giving a high five

I feel drunk but I’m sober

I’m young and I’m underpaid

I’m tired but I’m working, yeah

I care but I’m restless

I’m here but I’m really gone

I’m wrong and I’m sorry baby

What it all comes down to

Is that everything’s gonna be quite alright

I’ve got one hand in my pocket

And the other is flicking a cigarette

What is all comes down to

Is that I haven’t got it all figured out just yet

I’ve got one hand in my pocket

And the other one is giving the peace sign

I’m free but I’m focused

I’m green but I’m wise

I’m hard but I’m friendly baby

I’m sad but I’m laughing

I’m brave but I’m chicken shit

I’m sick but I’m pretty baby

What it all boils down to

Is that no one’s really got it figured out just yet

I’ve got one hand in my pocket

And the other one is playing the piano

What it all comes down to my friends

Is that everything’s just fine fine fine

I’ve got one hand in my pocket

And the other one is hailing a taxi cab...

Hands Clean

If it weren’t for your maturity none of this would have happened

If you weren’t so wise beyond your years I would’ve been able to control myself

If it weren’t for my attention you wouldn’t have been successful and

If it weren’t for me you would never have amounted to very much

Ooh this could be messy

But you don’t seem to mind

Ooh don’t go telling everybody

And overlook this supposed crime

We’ll fast forward to a few years later

And no one knows except the both of us

And I have honored your request for silence

And you’ve washed your hands clean of this

You’re essentially an employee and I like you having to depend on me

You’re kind of my prot¨¦g¨¦ and one day you’ll say you learned all you know from me

I know you depend on me like a young thing would to a guardian

I know you sexualize me like a young thing would and I think I like it

Ooh this could get messy

But you don’t seem to mind

Ooh don’t go telling everybody

And overlook this supposed crime

We’ll fast forward to a few years later

And no one knows except the both of us

And I have honored your request for silence

And you’ve washed your hands clean of this

What part of our history’s reinvented and under rug swept?

What part of your memory is selective and tends to forget?

What with this distance it seems so obvious?

Just make sure you don’t tell on me especially to members of your family

We best keep this to ourselves and not tell any members of our inner posse

I wish I could tell the world cuz you’re such a pretty thing when you’re done up properly

I might want to marry you one day if you watch that weight and keep your firm body

Ooh this could be messy and

Ooh I don’t seem to mind

Ooh don’t go telling everybody

And overlook this supposed crime

Head Over Feet

I had no choice but to hear you

You stated your case time and again

I thought about it

You treat me like I’m a princess

I’m not used to liking that

You ask how my day was

You’ve already won me over in spite of me

Don’t be alarmed if I fall head over feet

Don’t be surprised if I love you for all that you are

I couldn’t help it

It’s all your fault

Your love is think and it swallowed me whole

You’re so much braver than I gave you credit for

That’s not lip service

You are the bearer of unconditional things

You held your breath and the door for me

Thanks for your patience

You’re the best listener that I’ve ever met

You’re my best friend

Best friend with benefits

What took me so long

I’ve never felt this healthy before

I’ve never wanted something rational

I am aware now

I am aware now

Ironic

An old man turned ninety-eight

He won the lottery and died the next day

It’s a black fly in your chardonnay

It’s a death row pardon two minutes too late

Isn’t it ironic... don’t you think?

It’s like rain on your wedding day

It’s a free ride when you’ve already paid

It’s the good advice that you just didn’t take

Who would’ve thought... it figures

Mr. play it safe was afraid to fly

He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye

He waited his whole damn life to take that flight

And as the plane crashed down he thought

"well isn’t this nice..."

And isn’t it ironic... don’t you think?

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you

When you think everything’s okay and everything’s going right

And life has a funny way of helping you out when

You think everything’s gone wrong and everything blows up

In your face

A traffic jam when you’re already late

A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break

It’s like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife

It’s meeting the man of my dreams

And then meeting his beautiful wife

And isn’t it ironic... don’t you think?

A little too ironic... and yeah I really do think...

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you

Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out

Helping you out

Perfect

Sometimes is never quite enough

If you’re flawless, then you’ll win my love

Don’t forget to win first place

Don’t forget to keep that smile on your face

Be a good boy

Try a little harder

You’ve got to measure up

And make me prouder

How long before you screw it up

How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up

With everything I do for you

The least you can do is keep quiet

Be a good girl

You’ve gotta try a little harder

That simply wasn’t good enough

To make us proud

I’ll live through you

I’ll make you what I never was

If you’re the best, then maybe so am i

Compared to him compared to her

I’m doing this for your own damn good

You’ll make up for what I blew

What’s the problem... why are you crying

Be a good boy

Push a little farther now

That wasn’t fast enough

To make us happy

We’ll love you just the way you are if you’re perfect

Right Through You

Wait a minute, man

You mispronounced my name

You didn't wait for all the information

Before you turned me away

Wait a minute sir

You kind of hurt my feelings

You see me as a sweet back-loaded puppet

And you’ve got a meal ticket taste

I see right through you

I know right through you

I feel right through you

I walk right through you

You took me for a joke

You took me for a child

You took a long hard look at my ass

And then played golf for a while

You shake is like a fish

You pat me on the head

You took me out to wine dine 69 me

But didn’t hear a damn word I said

Hello Mr. man

You didn’t think I’d come back

You didn’t think I’d show up with my army

And this ammunition on my back

Now that I’m miss thing

Now that I’m a zillionaire

You scan the credits for your name

And wonder why it’s not there

Thank U 

How about getting off of these antibiotics

How about stopping eating when I’m filled up

How about them transparent dangling carrots

How about that ever elusive kudo

Thank you India

Thank you terror

Thank you disillusionment

Thank you frailty

Thank you consequence

Thank you thank you silence

How about me not blaming you for everything

How about me enjoying the moment for once

How about how good it feels to finally forgive you

How about grieving it all one at a time

Thank you India

Thank you terror

Thank you disillusionment

Thank you frailty

Thank you consequence

Thank you thank you silence

The moment I let go of it was

The moment I got more than I could handle

The moment I jumped off of it was

The moment I touched down

How about no longer being masochistic

How about remembering your divinity

How about unabashedly bawling your eyes out

How about not equating death with stopping

Thank you India

Thank you providence

Thank you disillusionment

Thank you nothingness

Thank you clarity

Thank you thank you silence

That I Would Be Good

That I would be good even if I did nothing

That I would be good even if I got the thumbs down

That I would be good if I got and stayed sick

That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

That I would be fine even even if I went bankrupt

That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth

That I would be great if I was no longer queen

That I would be grand if I was not all knowing

That I would be loved even when I numb myself

That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed

That I would be loved even when I was fuming

That I would be good even if I was clingy

That I would be good even if I lost sanity

That I would be good

Whether with or without you

You Learn

I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone

I recommend walking around naked in your living room

Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill)

It feels so good (swimming in your stomach)

Wait until the dust settles

You live you learn

You love you learn

You cry you learn

You lose you learn

You bleed you learn

You scream you learn

I recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone

I certainly do

I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at anytime

Feel free

Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)

Hold it up (to the rays)

You wait and see when the smoke clears

Wear it out (like a three-year-old would do)

Melt it down (you’re gonna have to eventually anyway)

The fire trucks are coming up around the bend

You grieve you learn

You choke you learn

You laugh you learn

You choose you learn

You pray you learn

You ask you learn

You live you learn

You Oughta Know

I want you to know that I’m happy for you

I wish nothing but the best for you both

An older version of me

Is she perverted like me

Would she go down on you in a theater

Does she speak eloquently

And would she have your baby

I’m sure she’d make a really excellent mother

’cause the love that you gave that we made

Wasn’t able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no

And every time you speak her name

Does she know how you told me you’d hold me

Until you died, ’til you died

But you’re still alive

And I’m here to remind you

Of the mess you left when you went away

It’s not fair to deny me

Of the cross I bear that you gave to me

You, you, you oughta know

You seem very well, things look peaceful

I’m not quite as well, I thought you should know

Did you forget about me mr. duplicity

I hate to but you in the middle of dinner

It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced

Are you thinking of me when you fuck her

’cause the love that you gave that we made

Wasn’t able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no

And every time you speak her name

Does she know how you told me you’d hold me

Until you died, ’til you died

But you’re sill alive

’cause the joke that you laid in the bed that was me

And I’m not gonna fade

As soon as you close your eyes and you know it

And every time I scratch my nails down someone else’s back

I hope you feel it...well can you feel it